---

Front goose, back goose . . .

There’s something in the water 

-that calls me to the grave…

It stays in place while i stare it down

death looks at me 

and i See 

What it’s really like

I blank

And remember how my brother died 

Like Jesus prophets 

Spreading the Word of the Lord 

Am I going to heal from this? 

Will the absence ever take up space again?

density and Full 

I cross the desert terrain

soft sand hills 

Nothing but- 

Mirage me 

Show me what i can’t see 

Mirage me 

Let me sip from that Oasis 

Just a taste 

just a taste.. 

To Infinity and Beyond? 

is sad 

And I don’t know why 

He died 

I trust what I can’t see 

Chains me down to grassy land 

Hilltop behind a garden path 

The flowers blow around with the wind 

They seem happy like that 

Swishing 

I left you a white rose and lit patchouli for your name 

Cleanse and replenish

God, i hope you’re clean 

Can an addict ever be?

Disdain. 

The pain of you lingers in black wisps of smoke that turn around and hit me when i breathe 

Choking, irony.

I’m doing good by the way. 

Everything feels okay, now. 

Even though sometimes.. 

The water calls to me- 

It wants me to sink in to the pain 

Pressurize me 

and relief 

I see the sun when i look up 

It shimmers on the surface 

and I’m in dense space 

I’m surrounded by Life giving blood 

It contains me. 

When nothing else could- 

what if I meet you? 

halfway, for now. 

SMACK 

crash 

Absence back 

Black

---

anyways, i miss you

I saw Brennan last night

felt you too

Hope we can talk again soon

xx

My Oni Girl