Pointless

A made up concept.

As everything is: made up, Created

What is the point?

I’m yearning the answer of

Must I constantly define–

Purpose

I feel like I have that

in General terms

specificity though…

close up

details

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What is time?

• “Wasting time”

If… {I love what I’m doing}, is it really a waste? What if I just don’t know yet what it’s for.. A surprise?! from the Uni*

so what does it really mean to “waste time”

I’m thinking: I have an expectation of what I want, what “should” be and they’re ramming horns together. Who’s the Winner of that fight?

Quick q: Are the expectations mine MINE M I N E

The program I’m in right now for group therapy is called: Choices

Choices

Choices

Black and White

Black: Block, Protection, No

White: Lighten and Love the x, warmth, Yes

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*cue me talking kindly to myself

A1 : a flower blooms, says nothing

b : take your seat before the show begins, hurry, go go

A2 : “What are feelings?”

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a : I ask myself why, it feels.. overwhelming – – to-to want to.. know it all.. All ~

b :  I want to work- I work- all for what- when I get like this I think of freshly fallen snow

A1 : a flower blooms, says nothing

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a : Does it matter if there is a point or not? deeper deeper deeper I fall

b : With Grace and Ease and Love and Flow

A2 : What are feelings?

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a : The Divine cups my body, fetal position, and when Spirit is Done, when I’m ready, I do I do feel Tall.

b : Is it real? My experiences? sometimes, I don’t- she is. Because I believe it. I hear him. I feel them. I know. I know my beau

A1 :  a flower blooms, says nothing

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a : I want the Pure Light Life again… if that’s what happens (I choose to believe it) // I can feel it though- that’s the crazy part- I can feel The Call

b :  Success success: Arms Open Wide high up to the sky eyes closed neck thrown back, held, I CALL OUT: give me the dough!!!!

A2 :  What are feelings?

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a : Breathing, inhale exhale,- what’s a decision? In my brain, there is a brawl

b :  gnashing snapping jaws am I friend to Me or am I foe?

A1 :  a flower blooms, says nothing

A2 : What are feelings?

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Joy in the Present moment

Radical Acceptance Breathe in Light Breathe out Dark

It’s okay to be right here doing what I’m doing

profound

Existing is okay

Existing As I Am is okay

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Do I take things personally?

Is that why I have spite?

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I’ll bid a farewell

I want to bury myself in you

Beautiful